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Some thoughts…

Hey everyone, I know it’s been ages since I’ve actively been writing on my blog. Just so much has happened and we are smack in the middle of a pandemic. Life has been difficult and complicated and there is so much sadness and death around that I really just had no motivation to do anything.

I think the last time I’ve updated you on the fact that I had resigned from my job of 10 years and decided to be a stay-at-home mom. The main reason was so that I could focus on Zia’s academic year because she had to repeat grade 2. It really has helped as she is doing a lot better this year.

So, I’m still at home being all domesticated and I’ve got to tell you, I’m so bored. It got me thinking about myself, what I want for myself and life. What my interests are and what I could possibly to for myself … with myself because let’s face it, I’m not sitting for 8 hours a day with the kids’ homework, I have to keep myself busy.

I find myself asking what my purpose is in life outside of family? Who am I? What brings me joy outside of family life? I have to make some really good life decisions, how am I going to make some money for myself? Do I want to work for a boss again or do I want to try to make something for myself, by myself outside of family life? Is it selfish to want it all?

What I do I know is that now is the time to try and figure everything out. I was a woman with needs and goals before I had a family, right I miss that girl. There are literally so many women that has a family and a life of her own, she does things for herself, makes her own money. Lives her life for her (and her family). Now is definitely the time to make some changes.

I started thinking about my health too, Miss Rona really made me think about losing weight and giving myself time to build my immune system and look and feel better about myself. Losing weight became a goal of mine recently and I have lost some weight but I’m nowhere near where I should be. I also got my first jab, and actually going tomorrow for my second one. It really is a decision one has to make on your own.

There are so many people out there that don’t want to take the vaccination, my husband is one of them, and I will have to accept his decision as he has mine to have the vaccination done. I was nervous to have it done but I have to have faith that what I’m doing is the right thing for myself and my family.

I’m so over this pandemic though, but I do understand that this has become our new normal and we still have a lot of work to do. I don’t go anywhere unless I really have to. Staying at home with so much time on my hands which I think is adding to my boredom at home. I will do a reveal sometime, maybe when I have hot my goal weight. I’m almost there just about 2 kilos to go. Would you want a reveal post and an update?

I have so much ideas for businesses and my brand but to put it all together has proved challenging. I don’t actually know where to start or how to materialize it. Researching ways to make it all work out, that I find that I doubt myself and become way too despondent. I know there are so many people out there hustling and trying to make extra cash on the side. Or trying to make a living or become successful. So, I’ll just carry on until I get what I want.

Its spring finally which means, its gardening season. My favourite. I started planting some herbs and tomato seeds. Definitely looking to expand my garden this season. I really want a garden that will sustain my family and thrive. Imagine having garden that can provide the kinds of food that can help your family survive if ever there were a need. I find myself watching a lot of farming YouTube videos. Gives me a little hope that I can actually also have a thriving garden that can sustain and provide for my family. Watch this space. It excited to eat from my home-grown veggies soon. It really is the best feeling.

I’ve learned a lot of patience during this pandemic (but not for my kids, I’m still trying to get there lol). Because literally there is no where to go and not much to do outside of your home. I mean I’m sure I’m being more dramatic than it is, but I don’t leave my house unless I absolutely really have to. I’m too bloody scared. Also, life is so short to worry about things that are out of our control. We can only control ourselves and how we think and feel. There is no way we can obviously control this pandemic and life in general. I’m just thankful that I’m alive and healthy (for as long as I can be) and that my family is healthy and taken care of. We really along for the ride. Anyway, thank you for being here and I hope to hear from you in the comment section.

Can you believe 2021 is almost over? Have you been thinking about life? what you want out of this life? I am sure you have some worries and fears? Have you thought about the goals for yourself and your family? Let me know in the comments below, let’s get the conversation going. I know you’ve been thinking too.

Until next time

A

2 Comments
  1. Slm, yes, definitely been thinking. I guess if there’s anything the COVID has taught us, is that life really is that short. So I’ve been thinking about what I want for myself and my family. Thinking about my career path, my spiritual path, my kids future, just so many things.
    When I’m not thinking or planning or doing, I’m just grateful that I’m still here and that I’ve been granted another day.

    • Yes, also been thinking about so many things as well. Now is definitely the time for a change.
      And yes so grateful that we are still here, alive and healthy… anything can happen and life right now is so uncertain.
      It kinda feels like life has come to a halt.
      Not the best feeling xx
      Hope you well my friend!

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